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  Baby, It’s Cold Outside

  Baby, It’s Cold Outside

  A Novel

  SUSAN MAY WARREN

  Summerside PressTM

  Minneapolis 55337

  www.summersidepress.com

  Baby, It’s Cold Outside

  © 2011 by Susan May Warren

  ISBN 978-1-609362-15-7

  All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form, except for brief quotations in printed reviews, without permission in writing from the publisher.

  Scripture references are from The Holy Bible, King James Version (KJV).

  All characters are fictional. Any resemblances to actual people are purely coincidental.

  Cover design by David Carlson | www.studiogearbox.com

  Cover image: Getty Images

  Interior design by Müllerhaus Publishing Group | www.mullerhaus.net

  Summerside PressTM is an inspirational publisher offering fresh, irresistible books to uplift the heart and engage the mind.

  Printed in USA.

  For Your glory, Lord

  CHAPTER ONE

  Thursday, December 22, 1949

  If she could, Dottie would simply erase the next three days off her calendar.

  More than any other holiday, Christmas had the power to rip her asunder. A thousand tiny shards of excruciating memory bombarded her as she ventured through Berman’s Grocery store on the annual requisite journey to pad her pantry for the holiday.

  Christmas was for those with something to celebrate, with family, and the hope of a better tomorrow. Even Berman’s Grocery store believed that. As if emboldened by the optimism of the new decade, and casting away the specter of rationing over the past five years, they advertised a holiday special on Rock Cornish game hens at thirty-nine cents a pound.

  Dottie Morgan picked up the packaged hen. It fit well into her gloved hand, weighing two pounds, maybe a bit more. In all her forty-four years, she’d never had a Rock Cornish game hen.

  Behind her, a mother in the bakery section corralled two giggling schoolchildren. Dottie peeked at them—Minnie Dorr, with her little tykes, Guy and Hazel. She recognized the grade schoolers, dressed in their blue-checkered wool jackets, belts hitched around their bulky waists and sweltering in their knitted caps, from the library’s young readers program. Six-year-old Guy could wheedle right under Dottie’s skin like a burr.

  Or, a curl of warmth, if she let him.

  Dottie turned away from them, dropping the hen back into the cooler. She didn’t need a cart but hung her wire basket on her arm, passing by the turkeys. She hadn’t purchased a bird in…well, she knew she shouldn’t have stopped by the store on the way home from work. Today, the place bustled with women stocking up for the holiday, celebration in the air, and it only stirred up the old aches.

  Near the canned cranberry sauce hung an advertisement of a jolly Saint Nicholas slaking his thirst with a Coca-Cola, smiling upon two pajama-clad children surrounded by gifts.

  At the end of the bakery section a giant velvet stocking bulged with candy canes, Pfeffernusse cookies, and popcorn balls.

  A display of iceskates and holiday lights reminded patrons to visit Berman’s Hardware, next door.

  On the radio, Bing Crosby crooned out “Silent Night.”

  Memories simply couldn’t be dodged at Christmastime.

  Dottie stilled, her hand on a bag of flour, as she watched widow Cora Sundeen march past, her blond hair pulled back from her pretty face and tucked into a black boiled wool hat. Her son hung onto the hem of her matching coat. His ruddy cheeks and blue eyes could devour Dottie whole.

  Cora caught sight of Dottie and slowed, her face betraying a second of hesitation before she produced a smile. “Mrs. Morgan! I was just telling Cliffy how, when I was young, we’d celebrate Christmas Eve at the library, with cookies and a story.”

  Dottie calculated when she’d last seen Cora, seated at her knee at the library’s Christmas Eve reading, and put the woman at twenty-seven, or older, which meant little Cliffy must be nearly six. Cora probably had only a handful of memories of her fallen soldier husband.

  “Oh, Cora…” Dottie looked away, perspiring under her wool coat, wishing, yes, she’d driven straight home. Who needed Cornish hens and eggnog, and plum pudding and fruitcake? After all, who exactly would Dottie cook for? “You know I haven’t had the Christmas story hour…well, it’s been a few years.”

  “I know.” Cora’s voice lowered. “But perhaps it’s time to start the old traditions again.” Her arm curled over the shoulder of her son. “For the next generation.”

  Dottie had no next generation, but she refused to show that on her face. “Have a lovely holiday, Cora,” she said. She added a smile to soften her librarian tone and turned away from Cora’s fading smile.

  The radio announced, “I’ll Be Home for Christmas,” and Dottie headed for the door.

  Tomorrow. She could return tomorrow when the place might be nearly abandoned, every woman in Frost, Minnesota, at home preparing for the holiday weekend.

  She just about plowed over Lew Parsons ringing the Salvation Army bell just outside the door. His red velvet Santa-arm hung folded and pinned to his shoulder and he greeted her with a smile.

  “Merry Christmas, Mrs. Morgan.” He used his schoolboy tone, despite the fact that he had last year married Henrietta Fitzpatrick and now had a child on the way.

  Dottie tacked on the appropriate smile. “And to you, Lew.”

  She probably should dig into her handbag and find a dime, but she couldn’t slow. She just might be suffocating, choking on the sweet aroma of too many families who had somehow survived this wretched decade.

  As if to add gloom to her mood, the pewter Minnesotan sky had begun to drizzle icy droplets of despair, eating away the meager dusting of snow.

  Dottie wrenched open the rusty door to her father’s faded yellow International Harvester truck and climbed onto the bouncy bench seat, the springs whining with the December cold. She’d long ago thrown a blanket over the seat, opting to cover the worn holes rather than replace the car. She wrestled the gearshift into place and eased the truck out of the dirt lot. The rain pinged on the windshield like bullets, as if it had already begun to turn to sleet. She turned on the wiper blades, but they cleaned only a pitiful swath in the middle. She leaned over the wheel to navigate as she turned onto St. Olaf Avenue and headed out of town.

  Frost never suffered for holiday decorations. The entire town turned out in early November to embellish the lamps along the road with white pine boughs, hang lights from Miller’s Café and Soda Fountain, and add sparkling lights to Benson’s Creamery and the gilded window of the Frost Weekly News and the First Bank. The Snowflake Theater listed tomorrow night’s opening of Holiday Affair, featuring Janet Leigh and Robert Mitchum. Across the street, J.C. Penney boasted a window-sized red-berried wreath over their second-floor window, and at the end of the street, in the circular garden in front of the Frost Community Center—formerly the Germanic Center—the towering blue spruce glowed with twinkly lights against the rain.

  Only the star remained absent from the top of the tree. Perhaps it’s time to find the old traditions again…

  No. Not yet.

  She watched Father O’Donnell throwing plastic over the wooden crèche in front of St Peter’s Catholic Church, then turned left onto Third Street, driving past the community center. Movement inside suggested the local women’s auxiliary bedecking it for tonight’s dance.

  The five o’clock whistle at the mill echoed over the soggy town.

  The rain had begun to turn to ice, crystallizing on the windshield. The wiper blades bumped over the glass as they sloughed off the moisture. She passed Central
Park, the cottonwoods and oaks shiny with an icy glaze, then crossed the creek at North Street. The river flowed, angry with icy chunks, its spittle grimy below the bridge.

  When her father—land owner, banker, mayor of Frost—built their turreted Victorian on the outskirts of town, he’d expected the town to grow and overtake his vast acreage and add to the family coffers.

  Unfortunately, the town had grown toward the flour mill side of town and toward the train depot and beyond, so that the ornate green Victorian with the gingerbread trim and two balconies sat lonely under the knotted embrace of a grove of ancient cottonwoods, resembling something out of a Grimm storybook.

  The house overlooked Silver Lake on the south side—more a slough now than a respectable lake. In November, wild turkeys and pheasants took refuge between the stiff cattails and dry milkweeds dissecting the parchment ice. How many times had she wakened to old Barnabus’s wild spaniel barking, or the bonejarring crack of Gordy’s 16-gauge shotgun shattering the predawn air?

  Worse, of course, was when she bolted from the bed, her face to the icy window, as if she might catch her son Nelson out there beside Gordy in the misty dawn, wearing his grandfather’s rabbit shopka, dressed in his brown canvas coveralls, leaning into Gordy’s every word.

  Dottie fully blamed the loneliness of this holiday on Gordon Lindholm.

  She made out the white pine in her front yard, blowing in the onslaught of the storm. Twenty-plus years it had centered the yard, protected the house from vagabonds who might like a peek into her front windows. Too many branches had turned rusty over the past few years—she would need to prune it to keep it alive.

  Hard head stone from the hillside and fields made up a wall that partitioned the main driveway from the Third Street extension. She eased the old International up the hill toward the barn, which served more as a garage for her father’s eccentric collection of cars and electronics. Like the 1929 roadster. Her father had also owned a Packard Clipper, a sedan he’d purchased right before his death. Dottie had shipped it right back to Minneapolis when it arrived, months later.

  Her father always did live too extravagantly. Too many big dreams.

  She’d inherited that bit from him, she supposed. But she couldn’t blame her father’s peculiarities for the tragedy of her brief marriage.

  No, the state of her life, the lonely creak of the barren house, could only be attributed to her own desperate mistakes.

  Dottie slid out of the truck, the rain soaking through her wool coat, the mud slopping over her black dress boots as she tramped to the door of the barn and opened it. She drove the truck inside and parked. In the breathy expanse of the barn, the rain stirred the musty smell of forgotten hay, the remnant odors of the horses that once dwelled within, only bony Ollie left to lounge in the corner stall. Her grandfather’s winter carriage sat dusty and abandoned in another stall, age rusting its steel runners, cracking the two leather bench seats.

  Dottie checked on the feed for the horse. Someday she should sell the animal. He hadn’t been ridden in years, ornery as an old mule. In fact, only her son had ever been able to cajole the horse into service.

  She closed the barn door and hiked up to the house, her stomach already relishing the beef soup she’d left in the ice box. Tomorrow, perhaps, she’d purchase one of those game hens, stuff it, and roast it for Christmas day.

  Maybe even set the grand table in the dining room for one.

  For Nelson, she might try to acknowledge the day of God’s grace for the world, even if His grace hadn’t been extended anymore to her.

  Or, perhaps, and more likely, she’d stay home, under her mother’s wedding ring quilt, and listen to the silences collect her memories.

  If she could summon the courage.

  The rain turned her skin to ice, dribbling down her back by the time she reached the mudroom door. Stamping her frozen feet on the mat, she hung her coat on the peg, noticed the woodpile needed stocking, then opened the kitchen door and entered the heat of the house.

  Or, rather, no heat. An icy breath clasped the grand house with its too many rooms—fifteen total—in a crisp silence. No clanging of the old coal stoker, no heat blasting from the giant grate heater in the middle of the family room floor. The chilly floorboards protested, however, as she walked across the kitchen, plunking her purse onto the oak table.

  She listened to her heartbeat, closed her eyes. If she wanted—she didn’t even have to try hard—she could hear Nelson’s voice, feel his presence entering the kitchen after her. I’ll check on the stoker. The auger might be clogged. I’ll go break it free.

  The rain battered the window and she saw Nelson in her memory, his shoulders broad now, hardened by playing football, or chopping wood, or even loading flour at the mill. He grabbed paper and matches to restart the stoker, tugged on her father’s work jacket—now his—tucked on a derby, and headed outside, around the house to the cellar door.

  He had a song on his lips, something from Jack Armstrong, the All American Boy.

  Wave the flag for Hudson High, boys, Show them where we stand.

  Ever shall our team be champions.

  Known throughout the land. Rah, Rah. Boola boola, boola boola, boola boola, boola boo…

  She sighed as the song faded into the deathly still of the house. How she longed to hear him breaking apart the coal, the hammering pinging through the catacombs of their house until finally the auger began to turn again. The fire would rest in the coal furnace, heat whisking out of the giant floor grate and into the house.

  If she looked up, she might catch him carrying the heavy clinker out to the debris pile behind the barn.

  No. See, too easily Nelson crept into her hollow places, entering without permission. She ran the palm of her hand against her wet cheeks then retreated to the back room. Stepping into her father’s high-topped galoshes, she grabbed paper and pulled on the work jacket. Nelson’s scent clung to it, woodchips and teenager sweat, the smell of coal and oil and grease, and way too much charm.

  That charm got Nelson out of trouble too many times. Probably what cajoled Dottie into agreeing in that brief, wretched moment to allow him to march off to war.

  She stepped outside into the rain, hunching her shoulders against the pellets of ice now sleeting from the sky as she splashed through the slick yard to the cellar. The hasp lay unlocked, and she wrenched open the door, hesitating before she closed it behind her to keep out the rain. Once, when Nelson was about fourteen, the latch had flipped over, locking him inside for two hours. She’d found him sitting in the cold, pounding on the floorboards, after she returned from work.

  Dottie tugged on the overhead electric light and checked the coal stoker. Unlit, indeed.

  The coal man had dumped her allotment into the bin in early November. It remained half full of dark chunks, too many of them the size of anvils. Putting on her gloves, she climbed into the bin. Sure enough, a chunk wedged between the auger and the stoker hole. Grabbing the sledgehammer, she picked it up—not without a groan, and dropped it onto the coal. It broke in half. She dropped it again, and the piece tumbled free.

  She climbed out of the bin, listening to the wind whine outside. It shook the cellar door.

  Taking the paper from her pocket, she shoved it into the middle of the clinker inside the stove, added a piece of coal, and lit it.

  The furnace flickered to life, flames gnawing at the paper. The auger began to churn coal into the stoker. Until the house heated, she’d curl up in a quilt and build a fire in the family room.

  She removed her gloves, laid them on the steps, and pushed on the cellar door.

  It didn’t move.

  Again.

  She heard the hasp rattle against its mount, but it didn’t give. She closed her eyes. Then, with a cry, she banged her hand against the door, hard, sharp. The action was probably too violent, for pain spiked through her, up her arm, into her shoulder.

  The door only shuddered.

  She turned on the steps, sat down,
and lowered her head to her hands, listening to the memory of Nelson’s song fade into the howling wind.

  They’d probably find her frozen, emaciated body sometime in May.

  * * * * *

  “Come down from that ladder, Violet Hart, before you get killed.”

  Violet ignored Otis and finished screwing in the lightbulb before climbing down. She turned to the janitor, dusting off her hands before tucking them into her cardigan pockets. “It’s dark in this hallway, and I thought you’d gone home for the day. Sorry.”

  “I know you had some sort of man’s job in the army, Violet, but you’re back in civilization now. Let a man do his job.” He folded up the tall ladder, hiking it onto its side. “I’ll take care of the maintenance of the city buildings, thank you.”

  He had a waddle that went with his belly and sixty years on the job. Violet shook her head. She couldn’t even change a lightbulb without offending mankind?

  She caught her reflection in the display case—the one filled with the Oglala Sioux artifacts found around the area—arrowheads, pottery, a donated blanket from one of the locals.

  Violet had turned into Donna Reed’s dour librarian before her very eyes. No, wait, Donna Reed had been much too beautiful to end up as a librarian, even if George Bailey hadn’t asked to marry her. Some handsome suitor would have certainly come knocking at her door. But four years after the war, Violet had begun to admit there would be no It’s a Wonderful Life happy ending for her.

  No, instead of shopping for groceries or planning a holiday meal for a husband and family three days before Christmas, Violet found herself returning to the children’s reading corner and picking up the scattering of children’s books—Make Way for Ducklings and Curious George, the Beatrix Potter series.

  The rain knocked on the leaded glass windows of the Frost Library, the late afternoon shadows draping over the shelves and long study tables like dust coverings. The building imprisoned a chill, the behemoth coal furnace in the basement still not enough to heat both the library and the city hall.