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  If only you could see your own light, the one that shines out past the shadows your brothers cast over you. You try so hard to fit into their lives, to hold up your unspoken promises, believing for some reason that you are second best. And that if you don’t accomplish or find something extraordinary, you will be forgotten.

  You are the epic middle of the story, Casper. That delicious, rich, charming, sometimes-challenging, always-compelling middle that holds the family together. You are the life of the party, the spark that draws us close. Your belief that there are some things worth fighting for inspires us, and your courage to seek the precious in life is like the heart of Christ.

  This is my prayer for you. That you would see how much the world needs you. How valuable you are to God, to us. And that you would no longer see yourself as second best but as someone worth finding and cherishing.

  Do not let the world steal away your tender, compassionate heart. It is precious in God’s sight.

  And mine.

  Your loving mother

  A MAN STUCK in paradise should have someone to share it with.

  Especially on New Year’s Eve.

  Casper Christiansen angled his skiff along the shoreline toward the littered beach of Cay Comfort, the moniker given by the locals to this wash of beachfront in Old Port Royal, a tiny key off the island of Roatán, Honduras.

  The island time forgot, the perfect place for a person to hide. To listen to his regrets. To figure out how to find everything he’d thrown away. Like his future. His self-respect.

  And if that man could find the treasure hidden in the east end of the island, he might even return with the pride he’d left behind in Minneapolis the day he found out his brother had a too-intimate history with the woman he loved.

  Casper had followed the rumors of treasures away from the hustle of the west-end resorts. Here lush, rolling hills brambled with bamboo and dense ferns fell into the sea, and towering coconut palms and thick-leaved sea grapes canopied the creamy-white sand beaches. Locals built homes on stilts, as if still on watch for pirates, the kind that stole their women and dragged chests of gold doubloons ashore. The legends claimed marauders had fortressed themselves in the nearby limestone cliffs, securing their gold in caverns before venturing back to sea to plunder the ships from the Spanish Main.

  Casper had spent the better part of four months, in between diving for Fitz Hanson’s archaeological dig, plotting out exactly where pirates like Captain Morgan had secured such treasures.

  And tonight, while the rest of the world celebrated New Year’s Eve, he’d unearth old Morgan’s treasure, start a new chapter of his life.

  Casper raised his hand to a bronze-skinned ten-year-old perched at the end of his cayuka, fishing wire fastened around an old detergent bottle. He wore a Life is good T-shirt and cutoff jeans, his hair long like Casper’s.

  The child waved back. “Grouper for you tonight, Mr. Casper!” The afternoon sun glinted off his smile.

  Casper gave him a thumbs-up. He’d eaten enough fish to grow fins.

  Past the boy, the ocean stretched beyond the curve of the bay, the aquamarine water so glassy it begged him to reach out for the sea anemone shadowing the ocean floor, run his fingers through the schools of blue tang and creole wrasse scattering among the shoals.

  But he knew better. Fertile rumors of shipwrecks and sunken treasure, along with the hypnotizing ocean, lured a man into the turquoise depths and the dangerous labyrinth of coral latticed along the edge of the bay. Beyond the wall of jagged coral, deep in underwater caverns, squid and moray eels lay in vigil, preying upon men lured by the hope of gold doubloons and fueled by the yarns perpetuated by locals eager for tourists.

  Casper, however, had sorted the truth from the lies and knew why treasure eluded hobby enthusiasts scouring the sea.

  They were searching in the wrong place.

  Casper angled his skiff out from shore, away from the tangle of mangroves that scarred this part of the island. Yellow-naped parrots and lime-and-scarlet macaws sang from the shadows beyond the nest of vegetation, deep in the tropical forest, home to geckos, frogs, lizards, and ancient iguanas the size of a man.

  A tepid wind off the sea combed his hair, the air salty, drying his lips, his skin having turned leathery from his daily work at the Valiant wreck site.

  Dig director Fitz Hanson seemed to believe the entire island—and its hidden treasures—belonged to him. If he knew what Casper did on his days off, he might fire him on the spot, send him packing back to snow-encrusted northern Minnesota, where, according to his mother, winter had turned bitter and angry, plunging them into subzero suffering.

  Casper supposed he should feel guilty—in fact, yes, he did. But not because he was enjoying his days in the cerulean-blue ocean, his nights watching the moonlight trace a milky finger over the waves.

  No, his guilt sank into his bones, had claws. In the quiet of the night, the memory of his fury could shake him awake, fill his throat with regret.

  He’d caused a rift in his family that he didn’t know how—or even want, sometimes—to fix.

  A white-faced monkey squealed at him from a gnarled banana tree before scampering away. Casper steered the motorboat into the quay, where he’d first located the trail of set stones leading to shore.

  The stones betrayed the telltale sign of a foundation, a mooring site for sloops such as the type Welsh privateer Henry Morgan might have utilized.

  And according to Casper’s research, this little inlet just might contain Morgan’s lost treasure, the one first unearthed over seventy-five years ago by infamous adventurer Ziegler Hanes. Tale had it that, once upon a time, a river ran through the forest into the bay. Along this river, pirates lugged their treasures to a cave embedded deep in the tangle. Ziegler Hanes had thrashed through enough mangroves to discover the cave, explored it, and unearthed three chests wrapped in chains.

  These he cut open, then dragged one by one out to his ship, under the onslaught of a hurricane. Finally leaving behind the last chest, he’d nearly wrecked his ship escaping the island to nearby British Honduras.

  Which meant the last treasure chest could still be here. Right here, in fact, if Casper had his calculations correct. And so what that he’d spent the past two months unearthing nothing but pop cans, metal wire, dented buckets, and rusted buoys? He’d nearly lost his heart once digging up what seemed like the find of the century, only to discover an ancient refrigerator.

  Yet, deep down, Casper knew the treasure waited just for him.

  He moored the boat and retrieved his machete, a portable shovel, his metal detector, and headphones.

  He trekked into the green, remembering his steps, hacking at forest until he reached a clearing, his last search grid. Low-hanging sunlight streamed through the coconut palms, mottling the ground as he switched on the metal detector and fitted on his headphones.

  Treasure hunting isn’t going to give you a future, Casper. If you want to accomplish something in life, you have to work for it.

  He shut his father’s voice from his head. With sweat dribbling down his spine, wetting his long-sleeved shirt, the mosquitoes nibbling at his legs, and the no-see-ums dive-bombing his neck, yeah, he could consider this work.

  He got a hit and spent ten minutes with too-eager enthusiasm unearthing a rotted tin can.

  Blowing out a breath, he drew his arm across his forehead. His stomach clenched, empty after this morning’s plum jam on bread.

  Is that what you want? To be a treasure hunter?

  He shook away Raina’s voice, but she never escaped far, haunting him just beyond his thoughts.

  I’d like to find something precious, yes.

  Six months ago, he thought he had, in Raina.

  He swallowed, needing a drink, something cool against his parched throat.

  An hour later, Casper set the detector down and pulled the headset off his ears. He’d uncovered another tin can and a cup. A real haul. Maybe his pal Doug was right when he suggested Casp
er head home when the new interns arrived in two weeks.

  He hadn’t exactly discovered a lost fortune. And he’d spent most of his time helping Fitz haul old cannons, tin plates, and the occasional charred wooden beam from the ocean floor.

  He felt more like a day laborer than an archaeologist.

  So you’re like what’s his name—Indiana Jones?

  Raina again, and for a second, he let her settle there, remembering her in his arms under a northern moon. The way she ran her fingers through his hair, made him believe that he could be happy in Deep Haven, discovering a life with her.

  Slinging the metal detector over his shoulder, he turned it on but kept the headphones around his neck as he trekked back. He swung the detector loosely over the ground, following a tumble of rocks that could have been a stream, perhaps.

  Or maybe he was simply afflicted with an overactive imagination. The ability to tell himself a good tale, make himself believe it.

  Like the fact that he could have a happily ever after with a woman who clearly saw him as second choice.

  See, there she went again, tiptoeing into his brain and perching there.

  Yeah, pitiful man that he was, he could admit he still thought about—even cared for—Raina Beaumont. Probably more since he’d escaped the family drama and soaked himself in the sun day after day.

  Casper nearly missed the shrieking of the detector as he stepped out of the jungle, fifty feet down the beach from his skiff.

  The needle bumped into the red and he dropped the detector, grabbed his shovel.

  The sun hung low, an orange fire glowing over the horizon. As the trees slung shadows across the beach, he dug furiously against the onslaught of twilight.

  His shovel hit metal. Falling to his knees, he worked out the sand and ran his fingers over what looked like a rusty piece of chain.

  For mooring a boat.

  Casper sat back, his heart sinking.

  Except . . .

  He looked closer. The chain seemed hand-hammered, the edges of each link rough and not engineered.

  In fact—he pulled the rest of the chain from the earth, found the end. His pulse caught at the sight of an ancient padlock, broken open.

  He examined it, his mind turning through his research and landing on the story of Hanes and his third chest of doubloons.

  Abandoned under the storm’s onslaught, the chain had broken off.

  Casper got up and began to run the detector in a grid around the chain, back into the forest, where the mangroves had taken root.

  The detector shrilled and he dropped it, retrieving his shovel and beginning to dig.

  The now-milky twilight pressed shadows into the divots of the soil as his hand fastened around plate-size pieces of broken metal. He leaned into the hole and cleared away the sand, his breath short as he touched the rough, rotting top of a box.

  Sweat blackened his hands as he cleared away the dirt, trying to lug the box from the sand. It refused to budge. Casper attacked the hole with his shovel, widening it enough to wiggle the box lid free.

  What if—?

  He crawled his fingers along the edge, hoping to find the bottom of the lid, but as he handled it, the box creaked and the lid broke free, off its hinges.

  The archaeologist inside halted him.

  But he knew what manner of men haunted these islands. If he left the box here, by tomorrow it would be looted.

  As sweat dripped off his chin, saturating his shirt, Casper eased the broken lid open.

  Muddy water filled the inside.

  He held his breath as he plunged his hand into the murky contents.

  Silt sifted between his fingers. He worked them deeper, found the edges, then the bottom, his fingers scraping against wood, then . . . rock.

  No.

  Oh no. He felt around the hole in the bottom of the box where the elements had bashed it against rock, destroying the wood.

  And the storm had washed away any doubloons, any looted spoils from the Spanish ships sacked by the legendary pirates of the Caribbean.

  Casper pulled out a handful of gray mud, watching it leach out of his grip.

  Around him, bats awoke, blotting out the darkening sky, screeching. Monkeys screamed back, and mosquitoes sawed in his ears.

  He closed his eyes to his audience.

  Happy New Year.

  If the fifty waiting guests were depending on Raina Beaumont to get the bride to the altar, located in the fireplace room of the posh Summit Hill mansion, they should pack up and head home before the snowstorm buried them all for the weekend.

  Because Raina hadn’t a clue how to answer cute Gina McCune, despite the look of desperation in her young and worried brown eyes.

  “What would you do?”

  Pearl Jam’s “Just Breathe” threaded out into the hall, signaling the processional.

  “I . . .” Raina glanced toward the front, connected with Michele, the bride’s mother.

  Oh, boy. They wanted her advice? Did no one notice the fact that their wedding coordinator sported a pregnant belly under her not-so-little black dress? Not that anyone could guess that the father had ditched her long before he even knew about her condition. Still, she hardly felt able to dispense wisdom.

  Maybe, however, no one noticed her swollen ankles or the way she bumped around the room like a tank. Probably today’s activities—the decorating crew, the cake delivery, the flowers—simply distracted everyone from her cumbersome girth.

  Even her boss, Grace Christiansen, had refrained from ordering her to sit, put her swollen feet up, breathe through the occasional Braxton-Hicks contractions.

  But given that the elite bash counted as Grace’s first major wedding-catering gig, perhaps Grace didn’t have time to spare a thought for her assistant’s grand mistakes in life.

  Raina and the bride had to figure out their futures on their own.

  Gina blinked, fast, hard, staring at her bouquet of blue hydrangeas and white roses. “It seems right, but it’s the rest of my life. And . . .” She glanced through the half-parted double oak doors to her groom, Kalen Boomer, tall, blond, and swarthy, a hockey goalie for the St. Paul Blue Ox. He stood next to the green-tiled fireplace, beside his best man and the pastor he’d imported from his hometown. Kalen clasped his hands in front of him and stared at the floor.

  Gina turned back to Raina. “How do I know I want this? I mean, yes, I love Kalen—so much it hurts sometimes—but how do I know that we’ll be happy ten years from now? That he’ll still love me?”

  Raina opened her mouth, glancing past the petite bride toward the massive dining room, holding the delicious reception Grace had created. Garlands of white pine boughs wrapped with twinkle lights hung from the windows, the chandelier, the wainscoting. The collection of round tables glittered with gold chargers crowned with red glass plates over an ivory tablecloth, the room fragrant with the scent of cinnamon-stick favors wrapped at the head of each plate.

  Raina held her breath, willing Grace to appear with some pithy words of wisdom. Her roommate always seemed to have something profound for Raina over the past six months as she struggled to figure out the rest of her life.

  “What I wouldn’t give to just . . . know. To see the future and know I’m making the right decision. Some sort of lighted path,” Gina was saying. “I mean, look at you. You’re happy and married and have a baby on the way . . .”

  Oh. So someone did notice. And probably thought Raina had removed her wedding ring to accommodate swollen fingers. It wasn’t like she’d had a deep and personal conversation about her marital status with Gina over the past three months, and Grace had handled all but the most recent in-person planning sessions.

  Gina’s eyes grew glossy. She drew in a breath.

  If Raina didn’t conjure up something, this entire thing could trek south in a heartbeat. A sudden image of the bride escaping through the kitchen, upsetting a tray of champagne shrimp, flashed through her mind.

  But frankly—good question. How did
anyone make a lifelong decision like marriage? Or whether to be a single mother or give up her child for adoption?

  Likely any advice Raina gave the bride would only turn out to haunt the poor girl. Besides, sweet Gina seemed to have done everything right, her future nothing but sunny.

  As far as Raina peered ahead, she saw only darkness.

  She tried a reassuring smile but clearly managed to scare the bride because Gina’s eyes filled.

  Then—“Shh, honey.”

  Raina turned to see the bride’s mother slipping through the doors. Tall, elegant, blonde, and not a hint of the Asian descent evident in her daughter, she appeared to be in her early fifties and still wore her wedding ring, despite her recent widowhood.

  “Mom—sorry. I’m just having a second of . . . Well, how do I know this is the right decision?” Gina turned to her, and Raina stepped back, watching the moment she’d always longed for herself.

  A mother’s advice.

  Michele took her daughter’s hands. “We don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but you can’t live your life fearing the what-ifs. Kalen is a wonderful man, and he becomes the right decision the minute you say, ‘I do.’ The bigger question is, are you ready to make that decision?”

  No. Raina wanted to scream it out for Gina—or maybe herself. With only six weeks left . . .

  Her hand slid up to press against the baby’s foot, lodged just below her ribs.

  “Yes.” The shadows cleared from Gina’s expression. She peeked through the doors, a soft smile lifting. “Yes.”

  Her mother held out her arm. “How about if I walk you to meet your groom? Your father would have preferred to do it, but I know he’s watching.”

  Now a tear ran off Raina’s chin. She forced a smile and held open the doors as Gina and her mother headed down the aisle.

  Gina met her groom, and Raina slid off her shoes, watching them exchange vows. As the ceremony progressed, she picked them up and headed to the kitchen.